So I just got back to school, and no one is here. So I decided to update. I went home for the whole weekend (the first time this semester) for Easter and my parents are going away so I wanted to say 'bye'. 

I feel like so much has changed around me in the last week. I think they are all for the better too, so that's something positive. Elyse and Rob broke up early last week, because she just wasn't happy with it anymore. They've been dating for a year, and it seems wierd to remember a time when they weren't together. I hung out with her last night, we went shopping and out to dinner. She seems really happy for her so I'm happy for her. I feel really bad for Rob though, he really loved her, and he is taking it kinda tough. Also, Amy and Adam broke up, they've been together for a year and half. It's  weird hat they are not together anymore, because we'd always go on double-dates. Again I think it is for the better, Adam seems really happy, and I know it sucks for Amy, but she'll find someone. Umm..what else? I've been really bitchy with Mike lately, I had a lot I wanted to talk about, and instead of talking to him about it, I decided to say 'witty', 'sarcastic', and 'bitchy' comments. Silly me. Sorry hun. However, I realized what I was doing last night. So he came over after work and we watched SNL, and talked. I feel so much better now! I love him...moving on...I got a new job! I'm really excited about a whole new atmosphere, and a more mature job. I'm working at New York and Company at the mall. I'm only going to work weekends until the summer though. The only negative is that I have to wear dressy clothes, and if you know me I'm not dressy dresser. However, I'm sure I'll get use to it.

Those are some big changes..so littles ones have occured too. Although this might sound dumb to some of you, actually to all of you. I found a way to wear my hair curly and have it look half way decent. That's really a breakthrough for me. It sucks to straighten my hair, never mind in the summer. Now it takes 10 mins, then sleep on it, and 10 mins in the morning. Yay! Also I've been hanging out with the UMD crew alot during the week in my room. It's great to go from a triple with older girls, to your own single. Everyone can just come over and hangout. Last Wednesday we watched American Idol and The Bachelor, while we dyed Easter Eggs. Great stuff, I love my girls too, we've been having some crazy ass slumber parties. The whole crew is awesome, and I'm really happy that we all live so close to eachother. One last thing..Adam and Mike decided that they are both coming to UMD next year, and rooming together. That's going to be soo crazy, I can't wait.

I have so much work to do this week and I'm not looking forward to doing it at all. Anyone wanna take some tests and write some papers for me? Please! I think that is about it. I should probably get going and actually do some of that work. Bye bye for now

I have a new home for next year with Kelly in Oak Glen 8316A. We only waited in line for 4 hours to get it. haha. I'm kinda tired, I might take a nap but I have a microeconomics quiz tomorrow. Oh well. I was up late (for me 1:30 am) talking to Kelly. It was good to have our long pointless conversations again, but yet they are really meaningful. I love talking, especially on Tuesdays, it's like a classic!

I finished my scrapbook so far. Ya- how old lady is that? It's really cute, I can't wait to take more pictures and then I can do more pages. Oh ya..by the way..I'm living in a single now. My roommate, Emily who wasn't around much this semester decided to move out to the Dell. It's really cool though. Jenna and Kelly helped me move the room around, thanks girlies. Now there is alot of moving room in the center. And my desk and bed are up against the wall, so people can watch tv on the bed.

I haven't been able to get a hold of Mike today :O(  I miss him already, is that bad? I love him soo much. XOXOXO

nap time

Well it's past midnight, and I cant seem to fall asleep. Even though sleep is the one thing I need right now. I promised myself that I wouldn't write any private information on this thing, and that I would use it just to write silly things or what not. However..I feel like I have alot on me right now that I need to get off my chest..care to listen?

So I had a pretty good day today..I got some work done this morning. I got to sleep in late..I had my microeconomics class in which i'm actually starting to understand things. that's always a plus..then I came back to my dorm and took a little nap/watched tv..then I was off to class. It was really boring..but Jenna kept me entertained my looking at my paper full of flowers and arrows..ya i know..i'm strange. Then we went to dinner. Kelly's roomate came, and it was the first time we really talked and she seems supernice. After dinner, Jenna, kelly and I went to run some errands..i'm a crazy driver. then we went to the UMD basketball game. I watch Jen and the dance team preform..they did awesome..and Happy bday Jen..then the girlies came back to my room..we watche American Idol and One Tree Hill...we were all really giggly and we were just having an overall good time..erich came over for a little bit and boy does that kid make me laugh..then they locked me out of my room for a good 15 mins..it was really funny though. Erich was trying to be on my side...haha screw him..We joked around after and then as everyone was getting ready to leave. I got a phone call from my mom.

                                   My Aunt Sherry passed away tonight. I didn't know what to say at first..I was a little shocked, but I knew it was coming. It's soo hard to deal with..I have the greatest friends in the world though. I didn't want them to see me cry, cause it took a minute to settle in..and as they were leaving Kelly gave me a  big hug and I grabbed on to her as if she were the only thing I had at the moment. I didn't want to let go, cause I realized then that I would never see my Aunt again. Both her and Jenna insisted many times that they were always here for me. Erich also said that he would be there if I needed him for anything. Thanks guys.. I just really want these people to know how much they mean to me. Those of you who know me well, know that I'm an emotional person. It's great to know that being here without family comfort that I have my friends. It's easy in college to make friends that will always be there for a good time, but it's a little harder to find those who stick around with things get tough.

To Kelly: I'm not sure if she'll read this, but if she does..I just need to say it. She is the greatest..I have soo much fun with her even if she does call me a nerd and throws salt in my eye. I really needed her tonight and she was there for me. I can honestly saw that I thought she was the worst person in the world at one point in my life..but it just proves that life surprises you in ways you can't even begin to think of..Kelly..thank you for everything

Starlette710: let me be the one you call
if you jump i'll break your fall
lift you up and fly away with you into the night
if you need to fall apart
i can mend a broken heart
if you need to crash then crash and burn
you're not alone

Thanks to Mike too, I talked to him tonight and he was very sympathetic, but we was able to get my mind off of everything and calm me down. I love you hunny.

Now I have a little problem..the funeral is friday morning..meaning that I would have to drive back thursday night. and then drive with my parents for 3 hours there. I have a big assignment in math due, which isn't a big deal because I can talk to him about it. However, I don't know if I can go. She is being buried next to my Grandfather, Grandmother, and Uncle George. And with each funeral that happens, it gets harder and harder to go back. When I was little at my Grandfather's funeral I stood next to my grandma, and I saw my  tough Uncle who was in Vietnam for a good part of his life, cry with no end..A few years later when I started high school, I stood in the same spot next to grandma but watched as flowers were placed around my Uncle's grave. Skip ahead a few years to Sept. of my senior year, and there I was with my Mom next to me, and my Aunt Sherry about a foot away as I looked on my grandpa's grave stone which had now been complete with his wife's set of dates....1912-2002. I haven't been back in that town since I took that last things away from my grandma's house, I don't think I can do it. I dont think I could relive all those people dies infront of me all over again..I need time to think...I miss them all so much . I miss telling them stories, I miss them telling me stories.. the greatest feeling was the smile on their faces when I would tell them how well I was doing in school. I was the only granddaughter on that side, and my grandma was always soo proud on how far I got in school. If I had one wish..it would be to tell my grandma that I got Dean's list my 1st semester in college. I can see her smiling now. See I cant do this..I really can't because I'm gonna start reliving every memory I even had with the ones I loved..it hurts to know that they are gone...

well..I guess I can forget the whole being too private thing...I need sleep badly...night

RIP